Hi darkness.

I can't act like its not hurt , and i can't pretend like i don't care. If this is karma , i already paid for that wasn't it ? If this is not, that means i don't deserve happiness . Or, is it wrong to care ? Nope, its not wrong for being care. Yea, perhaps people like me don't deserve happiness , im evil, mean, cynical and judgmental. There is always punishment for bad people. As i said , im done playing nice. I don't see any difference for being a nice person . In fact im getting hurt too. 

My pride does not allow me to cry in front of other people , begging other people not to ditch me, or showing my weakness. Im strong and tough , i can get through everything. But, im only human. How long can i stand against the darkness? Being a coward should be a better way, like what i always did before. This is the first time im being honest with myself. For the first time in this few months i feel heartbroken. I should be happy , this is what that leads to who i am. Finally i can feel it. Hello Rina :)